强迫自己的事一件也做不出来，不开心的事一件也忘不掉，不爽的感觉一刻也受不了
I think I’m wasting my life now
my life is on a wrong track
I hate it like I hate monsters
maybe others think that this is so damn great you can be like this but, this is not really what I wanted to be.
whatever it’s good or bad, it isn’t what I like to be and I still feel very disappoint now.
